finally

the end

前一晚的心情很复杂。杂货店的阿姨，苏丹的邻居莫哈默，保镖朋友杨晨，820 AM 的乔治，DVD店的阿姨，炒饭店的叔叔阿姨，温馨的小猪猪，这些人的温暖让我近乎落泪。是他们在这四个月里给与很多欢乐，很多关怀。

我很谢谢前三个月一起度过的鹤们，我知道我现在说，你们也不朽但无所谓。我真的打从心里感激你们的陪伴，你们给的欢愉。毕竟三个月不是很短的时间。

之后的一个月，很谢谢fong，其他的同学，尤其 L102。你们的无厘头，你们的热情感化了我。谢谢你们。会一直记得 candyp 唱MR Q 的模样，她 makelove hotel 的原理。还有袭胸者crispymountain。

来到尾声，更要谢谢家里人的支持。还有在新加坡的朋友们对我的关心。没有你们我在这里的日子会难过得十几倍。

我万分的感激，万分的感慨。

谢谢。

可遇不可求

this would be one in a lifetime experience. i didnt get to raft but i exchanged it with another experience that i think that made my life and my immersion in China much more valuable. rafting, perhaps another time.

i guess oral dictation would be better to relate what exactly happened. but definitely, after this ordeal, you'll treasure whoever and whatever that you have in my 19 yrs (applies to me) of your life. not that i was afraid to die but it would be a pity to die so early before trying out other things.

but damn my body which fails on me whenever there is something important to do.

漂流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流流

can see, can see, can see what's behind the white waters?

and i am going to do this here, in C-H-I-N-A. going off to Yichang tommorrow for some adventure. quite exciting but yar, in case anything happens, refer to my Mount Lu post.

oh ya, exams are over. i think its a milestone that i might bid adieu to my education of 19 years. because i think i wont be pursuing my studies anymore further and it ends in the note of 《庄子》，《孔子》，《孟子》，《诗经》，《左传》，《楚辞》，《战国策》，《国语》. the highest level of chinese language i suppose. 我修炼成佛了，哈哈！can bring my scriptures back to Singapore and preach.

so when i go back, its attachment and then i graduate, work, get married, give birth, feed the kids, feed my kids' kids then die. wow, so much for my life that i lived for.

你这个王八蛋

被放逐在寒冷的边际
去学习暧昧不清不是甜蜜
——放逐爱情 解伟苓

陌生的面孔匆匆略过
感觉每张脸都是你的轮廓
——我走以后 张靓颖

你只是不晓得，我的逞强是要放开你，让你有足够的地方翱翔。
你那天的话，像棘枝。为什么要回来扰乱？
玩游戏，奉陪。感情，免谈。

因为你走的那天，我带上了人生的面具。
直到我想拿下来为止，谁也妄想掀开。

连你也不行，因为你没资格。

the garden that i once visited and stayed for a long time when i was 11

it was with shooting stars. which is why they called it meteor garden.

haha. xingkong brought me back there again to the place i once indulged myself in. i could still remember how much in love i was with F4 back then which makes me cringe at the thought of it now.

Jerry Yan, totally a juicy tender meat to paw on, Zai Zai who is someone whom you wanna shower your care for and admire secretly, Vanness who would definitely make a good party-fun kaki and Ken who would be that someone honest who would listen to you. haha, that's my image of them when i was younger. i use to buy those shiny sticker-cards at the mama shop nearby my old residence and collect them.



now looking back at those classic scenes really brought back a million thousand pure innermost feelings i had then. but as i watched the show now, i realised how much i have grown and how much my mentality has been thawrted by dirty reality and it felt bad. everything that seem so natural back then seemed so "acted" now. but one thing that haunts me now and i never feel ashamed of is the show's OST. its where i knew my playlists all time classics like 情非得已，我要的爱，Honestly I Love You, Settling, Loving You, Perfect Moment, Love of My Life, Never Fall In Love Again, And I Love You So.

oh ya and the fashion sense *smacks head, "long bia"*



but nevertheless, i really appreciate xingkong and expect for 7-9pm every weekdays now.